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A weird paradox

25-35 is the age that if you are in struggling to development phase during this age then you find it very difficult to share it seeking solutions from others.  For example, currently I am facing huge struggles, obstacles and complication in my PhD due to lack of proper amenities, toxic research culture, politics on may levels and layers, egos and corruptions involved, untimely delays, resource allocations, and then in the end complex, unpredictable, and weird support and supervision as well.  There's too much stress at the work place. Add to that, I am literally suffering from too many prolonged injuries since past four years, now the pain is becoming severe day by day, and I have developed new issues as well. I suffer from herniated spinal slip disc issue, which is severely affecting my neck, spine, lower back, and my kneee. Then I have achilles tendons, and heel pain issues from past three years due to past many basketball and football injuries. I had minor accident accident also

Gloomy days dairies

Some days are gloomy some aren't. Difficult times and phases are hard to pass by.  Sister has back papers. 7 back papers. Her degree was supposed to be finished by August last year. Most of her batchmates are placed and leading a settled life serving parents keeping them happy and healthy. While here is she. Still struggling with subjective college exam papers, still immature, toxic, erratic, and mannerless, and still living in own delusional selfish world treating parents like shit while drowned in plethora of fake ego at the same time.  Sometimes I so feel deeply that we both have failed our parents. We both have failed as a good kids, those who could provide them peace, comfort, and most importantly a good respect in the society which they have always craved for and which infact they so well deserve.  Our parents have done what not for our comfort, our needs, and have sacrificed so much in terms of health, mental peace, time, and relationships just for the sake of our studies, g