25-35 is the age that if you are in struggling to development phase during this age then you find it very difficult to share it seeking solutions from others.  For example, currently I am facing huge struggles, obstacles and complication in my PhD due to lack of proper amenities, toxic research culture, politics on may levels and layers, egos and corruptions involved, untimely delays, resource allocations, and then in the end complex, unpredictable, and weird support and supervision as well.  There's too much stress at the work place. Add to that, I am literally suffering from too many prolonged injuries since past four years, now the pain is becoming severe day by day, and I have developed new issues as well. I suffer from herniated spinal slip disc issue, which is severely affecting my neck, spine, lower back, and my kneee. Then I have achilles tendons, and heel pain issues from past three years due to past many basketball and football injuries. I had minor accident accident also

Some days are gloomy some aren't. Difficult times and phases are hard to pass by.  Sister has back papers. 7 back papers. Her degree was supposed to be finished by August last year. Most of her batchmates are placed and leading a settled life serving parents keeping them happy and healthy. While here is she. Still struggling with subjective college exam papers, still immature, toxic, erratic, and mannerless, and still living in own delusional selfish world treating parents like shit while drowned in plethora of fake ego at the same time.  Sometimes I so feel deeply that we both have failed our parents. We both have failed as a good kids, those who could provide them peace, comfort, and most importantly a good respect in the society which they have always craved for and which infact they so well deserve.  Our parents have done what not for our comfort, our needs, and have sacrificed so much in terms of health, mental peace, time, and relationships just for the sake of our studies, g

 7th March 2024 A thought just hit my mind today. Like I am suffering a lot of challenges and obstacles in getting married to my long time girlfriend. She has been with me in all the ups and downs since a decade now. However, just because we belong to an orthodox Indian society divided on caste, color, culture, region, religion, and multiple other differences, one has to suffer a lot on multiple stages in many aspects while taking important decisions in life. My girlfriend belongs to a different caste, and is from another state and will surely bring an entirely different set of culture and mindset with her when she will be marrying me. Parents mainly remain scared due to cultural differences, perspective issues, and the part where there are high chances of huge toxicities and arguments which can adversely affect the harmony of the families.  In India, the marriage is never between the two individuals. Parents from both sides are involved, then the relatives comes in the picture and so

18th November 2023 World Cup Final Day India vs Australia They hype was huge. There had been dreadful verbal and online fights with the people who were toxic, narcissist, and negative in vibe.  Whoever were saying they didn't trust India, had more trust rather fear from Australia were on my blacklist.  And that is what Happened. The team which performed and dominated so well over the entire tournament screwed up in the main d day finale.  India lost. Mighty fucking cricketing dinosaurs Aussies won again. They dominated us in all three departments of batting,  bowling, and fielding.  India lost badly and it was extremely hurtful to see our legends like Virat Kohli, Rohit Sharma, Bumrah, Shami, Jadeja, and others in tears. After all their dedication, hard work, perseverence, and dominance over the whole tournament, they lost. Our sorrows knew no bound.  The more disheartening part was to see the predators feeding on resources provided by this great country India being extravagantly h